Saturday, June 11, 2022

Deeper into the unknown

This is another free followup article on the twelfth astrological house. I've briefly discussed the nature of the twelfth house in this article and I elaborated on it in my article "A living hell: The eerie twelfth house" from Asteria 2. I've also discussed despair more in depth, it being a twelfth house theme. This article detail a few other twelfth house themes which affect an individual from both a micro and a macrocosmic perspective.

In the article from Asteria 2 I spoke about solitude as being part of the twelfth house bag of goodies. Solitude has its good sides and I also spoke about it from the perspective of monks who seek mystical experiences. But solitude can be good for us laymen as well since every so often we might feel the need to sit alone with our own thoughts due to various reasons, especially when the world around is constantly pushing us along more rapid lanes. In this case, brief periods of solitude can help one more or less center themselves, perform self reflection, possibly even eliminate stress and charge one's self with confidence, determination, etc. Needless to say, constant periods of solitude are necessary for someone who's actively involved in the occult due to obvious reasons.

Yet solitude is often experienced as being a bad thing. Humans are social creatures and we often seek the company of others. Sometimes though, others do not reciprocate and we find ourselves all alone, ofttimes for more than we could imagine (and for more than we could bare). This state of being alone is uncomfortable for the mundane mind and, without being quite literal, it often drives people crazy. 

By this I mean anxiety starts to find its way into the person and begins to eat at their inside. The individual is left only with themselves, their thoughts and whatever actions they can perform, but even then they can only think and do so much before they get bored. Routine, a thing of the sixth house, kicks in and starts chipping away at the person's mind - Chinese water torture, anyone?! Sooner or later the individual begins to lose his or her shit and enters the domain of the twelfth house.

While this is no rule of thumb, I've noticed quite a few people who inadvertently cause themselves to experience solitude by determining others to distance themselves from them. I've said inadvertently although this is only apparent on the surface. A closer observation would she'd more light on the issue though.

It just so happens there are people who act in certain ways and say certain things that cause others to distance themselves from them sooner or later. Their words and actions can cover more than a few circumstances, but I will merely mention a few: people who constantly say one thing and do another, or not do anything at all; people who are constantly unreliable without having ulterior motives or benefiting from it in any way; people who are not true to their word for the same, aforementioned reasons; people who constantly make up excuses, often in the last minute, to walk away from certain circumstances even if those circumstances are not perilous for them, but their act of walking away ruins the plans of others; etc.

It's one thing to ask family members or friends to leave you alone for a while and making them leave you alone for as long as it's possible for them is another thing altogether. Likewise, it's one thing to deliberately act in certain mischievous ways to make unwanted people leave you alone for good and another thing to act as your usual self and cause people who's company you enjoy to turn their back to you.

Let's take a romantic couple for example. I shall refrain from going into details of a sexual nature, but you can imagine such examples as being perfectly probable. One person plans a quiet weekend retreat for them and their sweetheart at a log cabin and tells their partner about it in advance. Their partner might be thrilled or at least they seem to welcome the idea. The initial person takes it upon themselves to make all necessary arrangements, books the cabin by paying at least part of the amount in advance, buys a bottle of champagne, checks to see if the car is fit for the drive, etc. 

Then, the more that retreat weekend is getting closer the more their partner starts acting weird for no apparent reason. They come up with all sorts of apparent problems and issues that can be postponed for after the retreat, but they keep insisting they should take care of them as soon as possible. Sometimes it's possible such a person would reassure the other they can do shit on time, but they can just as well start panicking and demands their partner becomes involved in fixing those issues and overlook their own to do list for the retreat. In the former case the person will drag on with the apparent fix of the apparent problems and in the latter case they will generate unnecessary complications for their partner, resulting in their partner not being able to get anything done. In the end, the retreat is cancelled and the initial person loses time, money and is subjected to unnecessary stress.

Another, quicker example would be someone who's got two tickets for a big game or a concert, tickets that have sold out by then. The person is single and wants to invite a friend, but has to choose between two people. They ask one of them first telling them if they can't go then they will ask another person, often naming that person. The first person gives them an affirmative answer. Things change along the way and whereas they were supposed to meet a few hours in advance and go to the event together, their friend ends up telling them they will have to meet at the entrance a few minutes before the event starts because something unexpected apparently happened. In the end, the person doesn't show up at all and the initial person is left to watch the event alone since it's become impossible for them to call on the other person they had in mind for the extra ticket.

These are just two examples from a long series of such unpleasant scenarios some people subject others to on a constant basis. To be clear, I'm not referring to situations where actual emergencies and unexpected things occur, but cases where people make it seem as if such things are occurring. While the amplitude of such scenarios may differ, their repetitiveness determines those whole fall victim to them to start turning their back to such people. At the very least, those people would end up acting rude towards those who exhibit such behavior on a constant basis, but they usually end up rejecting them altogether sooner or later. 

In turn, the people who exhibit such behavior are often startled by the turn of events and the way they're being treated. In their mind, they did nothing wrong and instead people start distancing from them. They begin to experience more and more solitude, something highly undesirable for them. They start feeling victimized and act upon that feeling, while blaming others and calling them in various ways.

It often happens such behavior is closely linked to the natal Black Moon. Whenever that happens, people are even more prone to such behavior as a means to project shit onto others. You can find out more about these patterns in the article "Come to the dark side: Astrological healing with Lilith" from Asteria 2.

At any rate, the nature of the twelfth house determines such people to act this way. These are self undoing patterns that act upon the macrocosm and end up affecting one's microcosm. The tragedy these people often experience is they seek to be in the company of others while at the same time doing all sorts of crap that pushes those people away. The greater tragedy is they don't realize its cause because the nature of the twelfth house renders them oblivious to it. If one's Black Moon has a more prominent influence in their life (through aspects and placements), the individuals in questions are even more obvious to the actual cause. 

They will keep fucking themselves over in their mind, thinking highly of themselves and often criticizing others for their misery. Moreover, the more alone they find themselves the more they start clinging on to people which results in making those people distance themselves from them even more. This repetitive cycle can cause people to experience life from an increasingly shrinking bubble, one that becomes bleaker by the day, irrespective of the fact everyone seems reality from their own subjective perspective. But in this case the nature of that subjectivity is more extreme. 

This is in itself another form of solitude and it can prove just as hellish for someone as spending time in solitary confinement, even if the person is living free in the midst of society. Such mental prisons are usually filled with their own guards and inmates (represented by various thought and emotional patterns) that can make life even harder for people.

Scott speaks of working with the Moon and Leo as general work for changing one's conditional behavior and I think that is a solid idea that will benefit people greatly. I have my own methods that deal with these issues more in depth, but unfortunately they require people to study their own charts and identify their own issues based on their natal twelfth house, any placements inside it, any aspects those placements might be involved, the ruler of the house, its placement and aspects and so on. Although I guess it'd be best for everyone to find their own way of dealing with the deeper implications of these issues since none of us are alike and there's no one single way to handle them. At any rate, I would expect the work to be ongoing.

That'd be all for now.

Hate on, dum-dums!

The Great Gazoo

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